Have you ever been caught in the web of two or more mutually exclusive choices (meaning they can’t occur together)? Not choices of what to eat or drink but choices that can affect your life in other weighty ways asides nutrition? I think that at several points in our lives, we will find ourselves at crossroads whether it is picking one of two jobs or deciding whether to take up an opportunity or get married or whether to further your education. In the last couple of weeks, that was me. Arrived at a T-junction and had to make a decision on whether to turn left or right – figuratively.
Neither of the two choices I was faced with would have a negative outcome anyway. And that’s what makes it even more difficult to decide on a course of action -when it’s not black and white. I kept telling myself and every one that cared to listen that I was open to the possibility of any of the two choices I was faced with really, and it was just a matter of whichever one happened first. Easy? So I thought. And then both options seemed to be happening simultaneously. Bigger problem. So, I still had to make a decision and tossing coins wasn’t going to help me here. A or B?
Life isn’t crystal clear all the way. We all just try to find our own path and figure it out as it unfolds. I find it very interesting that God gave us that thing called free will when He could have easily controlled our every move. But no, He didn’t create puppets. The fact that we more or less have our own lives in our hands is not only liberating but it is also scary. Scary as in the fact that we have no one to blame when the outcomes of our decision go south; the reality that we have to own up to the choices we make in life. Because, we always have a choice.
So anyway, I eventually decided on one of both courses of action because like they say, not making any decision is a decision in itself. After much deliberation (both in my head and with loved ones), I decided to further my studies yaay! So, I’m in grad school and the consequences of that decision are still unfolding, rigor, stress inclusive. But then again, it’s been so far so good, I’m enjoying every bit of it.
The point is this: As long as we are on this earth, we are not immune to uncertainties in life (except of course in occasions where God reveals these things to us by visions, prophecies, etc. and He still does). If we were fully immune to uncertainties and everything else in life, we would be God. And we’re clearly not, never could be. However, since we are children of God, we have an assurance that He is with us through it all. Clear, unclear, sure, unsure. For me, this is enough – at least I am learning this. To know that I don’t have to have it all figured out and that He is with me through thick and thin, fat and slim. Why? Because, the man or woman who has God has everything. All I have to do is my part. What’s my part? Walking with Him. Talking with Him. Spending time in His presence.
He is ever present, ever ready to see us through. Never leaving us, always with us. All day, every day till the end of time.
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